When I was probably about 15. I would have done anything to earn that extra cash from my very unpleasant grandmother, so that I could go to my favorite news agent and buy one/two more copies of “One Piece, by Eichiro Oda”. Yes the popular manga about pirates. This was more than ten years ago. I underline that I could have done anything to get those manga books on my shelf because they made me feel good! Soon enough I have applied my drawing skills into creating my own stories. My own wicked characters with lots of different personalities, abilities, backgrounds and even heritages. A proper story teller through the manga/comic/drawing lenses.
Then I grew up. I got interested in different things…but I never stopped thinking of this group of Magicians. They were in my head night and day till I finally took a piece of paper and started drawing them at the age of 17.
I am now 28. I have both digital and physical archive about The Magicians, which can fill up the whole space of a a single bedroom. I wrote 5 seasons, more than 100 episodes (some of them are still in my head), all the mini series linked to the main story. All the main and secondary characters with their feelings about the situations, what they are going to do next, how they are going to react about certain things. Ect, ect, ect…
Last year, September 2016. I started drawing the first volumes and make these words and dreams reality. I then decided to show the world what The Magicians are, and I started to self publish them on Amazon.
Let me tell you something, I wish you think twice before to fall into this trap of standards and commerciality. Their flexibility is compare to zero! I believe there are tons of people like me out there trying to reach their goals and dreams. Try to make the difference, improving themselves, learning new things, applying all the knowledge and hardwork collected year after year into their projects. And soon realise that all of the above don’t matter because Amazon has its “procedures”. Self publishing is bullshit. I became humanless. Constantly bombarding my followers and friends on Facebook and Instagram to buy and look at my stuff. Telling about it to all the people that I know. Constantly with my phone on my face try to reach as many people as possible.
I suddenly realised, I lost all my passion for the things I have worked hard and spent so many sleepless nights for nothing. 90% of the time was spent on marketing and adjusting my (not as I wanted) comic for Amazon and social media.
What about the enjoyment of writing stories? What about learning how to draw a particular pose? What about just drawing?
If you decide to self publish you will forget all the pleasure you get drawing your things.
So I decided to stop this and now The Magicians is under construction. It will come back eventually but better and hopefully more approachable.
Since then, I strongly suggest you to express your own individual and don’t give up your dreams!